|Working toward seeing this number again -- soon!|
Then I realized -- I have been stuck at or around the barrier between 180 and 179 for longer than I really want to think about, and commented with that. Other people posted about similar challenges getting into the 180s, 140s, etc.
After reflecting, sometimes breaking into a weight "decade" or even "century," is difficult just because it is going to require a change. I had settled into a lifestyle that maintained me, without too much effort, at the weight I was. The injury scared me because I knew that part of that lifestyle was a lot of exercise, and I was afraid of gaining if I couldn't keep it up.
I rejoined Weight Watchers because I knew I needed a push to make a change to a lifestyle that would maintain me at a lower weight without heroic workouts. The first week, I did great because I stayed focused on that lifestyle. I think my big weight loss that week made me think I could loosen up and still lose -- hence two weeks of gains.
After last week's meeting topic on anchors, I searched out a photo of a simple, unstructured bathing suit and put it on the lock screen of my phone. This is what I'm working toward -- a body that doesn't need a bathing suit with a built-in girdle to look good. I will probably need one with more bust support than this one might suggest, but you get the idea. It's a reminder every time I log my food that I have reasons for wanting to lose that are important to me, even if they are a little frivolous. I think that keeping those reasons in mind will help me to break through the decade barriers.