Monday, December 31, 2012

Last post of 2012, new beginnings in 2013

There will be no weigh-in today. We had overnight guests and they were using the guest bathroom, where I keep my scale. I wasn't going to barge in there to use it. I did think about taking it out of there before they arrived, but I didn't see the point. I knew there was no chance I'd make my goal. I will weigh in tomorrow morning and post then.

I feel frustrated that I didn't meet my goal, but I also think that I did some important work this year to prepare for success in the coming year. I have worked harder on my swimming and Spin classes this year and I feel like I'm ready to start even more serious triathlon training.  I tested out both calorie counting and intuitive eating, and found that for me, keeping a food journal works better. I bought the premium version of Lose It! yesterday, after my five-year-old nephew made a comment about how my belly is bigger than it was when he saw me last year. That was the last straw. I need to work harder, and smarter, if I'm every going to succeed, and if a $40 app can help, I will use it.

Oddly, I had a dream last night that right after I bought this new app, I decided to join Weight Watchers, and I was upset about wasting the money on the app. That is going to be Plan B -- if by February 14 I am not seeing some serious progress on my own, I am going to rejoin.  I want to give myself one last chance to make calorie counting and triathlon training work first. I have found that when I am training seriously, it's harder to follow WW, and I have some big goal races this year. But if I can't do it any other way, I'm willing to go back.

I feel really willing to do whatever it takes to meet my goals this time around. I don't feel all anxious and ashamed and wrapped up in the outcome, I just feel some serious determination to stop fooling around and do the work, for my own satisfaction.

1 comment:

  1. A new attitude ... me, too. I'm trying to be very matter of fact about it this time around. Let me know what you think of the premium version of LoseIt. I'm tempted, but not sure I'd use the features.

    Beautiful skyscape photo.

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