There will be no weigh-in today. We had overnight guests and they were using the guest bathroom, where I keep my scale. I wasn't going to barge in there to use it. I did think about taking it out of there before they arrived, but I didn't see the point. I knew there was no chance I'd make my goal. I will weigh in tomorrow morning and post then.
I feel frustrated that I didn't meet my goal, but I also think that I did some important work this year to prepare for success in the coming year. I have worked harder on my swimming and Spin classes this year and I feel like I'm ready to start even more serious triathlon training. I tested out both calorie counting and intuitive eating, and found that for me, keeping a food journal works better. I bought the premium version of Lose It! yesterday, after my five-year-old nephew made a comment about how my belly is bigger than it was when he saw me last year. That was the last straw. I need to work harder, and smarter, if I'm every going to succeed, and if a $40 app can help, I will use it.
Oddly, I had a dream last night that right after I bought this new app, I decided to join Weight Watchers, and I was upset about wasting the money on the app. That is going to be Plan B -- if by February 14 I am not seeing some serious progress on my own, I am going to rejoin. I want to give myself one last chance to make calorie counting and triathlon training work first. I have found that when I am training seriously, it's harder to follow WW, and I have some big goal races this year. But if I can't do it any other way, I'm willing to go back.
I feel really willing to do whatever it takes to meet my goals this time around. I don't feel all anxious and ashamed and wrapped up in the outcome, I just feel some serious determination to stop fooling around and do the work, for my own satisfaction.