I appreciate the comments on the HAES post. Intellectually, I really agree with everything in the book, but emotionally I cannot accept the idea of giving up on the goal of weight loss. I completely support other people's right to be happily whatever size they are, but I am still feeling the pull of wanting to make a change for myself. I know this might not seem to make sense to a lot of people, but I know what I want.
That doesn't mean I am going to do something crazy and drastic in an attempt to punish off the pounds. In fact, I think that kind of thing would be counterproductive. When I made my Weight Watchers goal back in 2002, I went to one of those high-tech body-fat measuring places that used a Bod Pod. Even though I was within a healthy BMI, the technicians explained that my body fat percentage was fairly high, and when I explained that I had been running and following a diet plan, they tried to explain that those techniques can decrease muscle mass while still allowing the body to hold on to fat. I didn't believe them at the time, I thought the test just must have been wrong. But thinking back, that may have been why the goal was so hard to hold onto.
I just used the BMR calculator at Fat2Fit Radio's site (we miss you Jeff, please get well soon!) to calculate my calorie needs for following their program, which calls for extremely moderate calorie reduction and moderate exercise including strength training. I am going to use LoseIt to track my progress and even connected it to my blog's twitter account so anyone who is interested can follow my progress. I am going to take it slow and easy and also use some of the techniques I have learned from the HAES book and Geneen Roth and Inside Out Weight Loss. I'm going to continue to be physically active and just try to tweak my food intake gradually to bring it within the 1740-2248 calories (depending on activity level) recommended by the Fat2Fit calculator. I want to do this all from an attitude of self-care, not one of "fixing" myself. I am not broken.