First of all, to get it out of the way: Yesterday's weigh-in was 175.5, an uptick I was expecting for various reasons.
I'm not worrying about it because I am starting to feel more like my old self, which includes getting serious about exercise again. Yesterday I did a good 30-minute run on dirt trails with a few hills. Today I did weight lifting at the gym and went to a Spinning class for the first time in a while. I love the more intense exercise, because it seems to clear my head and help turn off that crazy switch that keeps me obsessing about stupid things like the size of my belly. What I want is to take care of business, which means tracking my food and exercising, and then live a normal life and focus on more important things. I want to lose weight but I also want to have a life. I understand why Jennette made the changes she did at her PastaQueen blog, because how boring and shallow is it to continually focus only on weight loss? I might focus on it a lot at this blog, but my real life is, thankfully, a lot bigger than that.
I love my new job, and have a lot of work to do to get up to speed on things. It's a totally different environment than I'm used to, and it's almost a little too aid-back for me. Luckily I can provide plenty of my own anxiety and stress, because this place won't do it for me. I am now working at a private, Catholic institution and I went to mass for the first time in a while, which was interesting. I went to a Catholic school and I think in my mind the religion got conflated with school rules and conformity because our principal used to take about half an hour when we were all sitting in church after mass each Friday to lecture us about the various crimes and misdemeanors that some of the students were committing. I recently read The Cloister Walk and it made me curious about the old religion, especially it's intellectual traditions. I found a lot in the mass service that spoke to me differently than in my school days. I'm not sure I'll go every week but I found it a nice, peaceful break in the week.