Thursday, September 04, 2008

Feeling more like myself

First of all, to get it out of the way: Yesterday's weigh-in was 175.5, an uptick I was expecting for various reasons.

I'm not worrying about it because I am starting to feel more like my old self, which includes getting serious about exercise again. Yesterday I did a good 30-minute run on dirt trails with a few hills. Today I did weight lifting at the gym and went to a Spinning class for the first time in a while. I love the more intense exercise, because it seems to clear my head and help turn off that crazy switch that keeps me obsessing about stupid things like the size of my belly. What I want is to take care of business, which means tracking my food and exercising, and then live a normal life and focus on more important things. I want to lose weight but I also want to have a life. I understand why Jennette made the changes she did at her PastaQueen blog, because how boring and shallow is it to continually focus only on weight loss? I might focus on it a lot at this blog, but my real life is, thankfully, a lot bigger than that.

I love my new job, and have a lot of work to do to get up to speed on things. It's a totally different environment than I'm used to, and it's almost a little too aid-back for me. Luckily I can provide plenty of my own anxiety and stress, because this place won't do it for me. I am now working at a private, Catholic institution and I went to mass for the first time in a while, which was interesting. I went to a Catholic school and I think in my mind the religion got conflated with school rules and conformity because our principal used to take about half an hour when we were all sitting in church after mass each Friday to lecture us about the various crimes and misdemeanors that some of the students were committing. I recently read The Cloister Walk and it made me curious about the old religion, especially it's intellectual traditions. I found a lot in the mass service that spoke to me differently than in my school days. I'm not sure I'll go every week but I found it a nice, peaceful break in the week.

3 comments:

  1. Living a normal life and focusing on more important things while taking care of business seems like a really good place to be. I'm glad you have a big, interesting life. Glad, too, that the new job is wonderful and you're off to a good start.

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  2. I loved this post. I agree completely. I want to focus on living and incorporate the stuff that keeps me healthy into that. I think I will go check out Pasta Queen's blog. I am curious. Thanks for the great post!!

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  3. I agree too, even though I cringe when I get the emails that berate me for talking about "boring life stuff" and not about what I ate or how I worked out the day before.

    Jeanette's new blog layout is really cool. I'm extremely jealous of people who can whip out web design like that, because I'm terrible at it.

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"Count your calories, work out when you can, and try to be good to yourself. All the rest is bulls**t." -- Jillian Michaels at BlogHer '07