Not sure how many other people do this, but I had a terrible morning today and thought it would be useful to blog about it. I was trying to get ready for work, and none of my favorite pants (that's trousers to you UK folks, not knickers) were clean. I had to settle for a pair that were a little tighter than I'd like them to be.
I then proceeded to try to put together an outfit with these hated pants out of the many hated (at least right then) options I had available to me. A cute sweater? No, muffin-top showthrough. A bulkier sweater? No, too hot and made me feel potatoey. A pretty blouse? No, larger (thanks to extra fat) breasts causes that dreaded center-button pull. Another blouse? Same problem, only worse. Long-sleeved t-shirt? Nope, muffin again.
I swear, I probably tried on and rejected at least twelve tops and was reduced to tears just trying to get ready for work. Of course, my anxiety was only heightened by the long commute that I was facing, and a day jam-packed with meetings. It is a miracle I even got to work today.
I need to make a trip to the dry cleaners, something I hate almost as much as getting dressed. I put it off for as long as I can, and once I give them my clothes, I hate to go ransom them... I'm almost tempted to just abandon them and buy new ones. Why can't everything be machine-washable?
So my life is littered with rejected, formerly-loved clothes right now. So partially it's about fitness for me, and then there's the other goal of de-topping my muffin... Still feeling completely unequal to dieting, though, as idiotic as I know that is. I have looked at this from every possible angle, and it all comes down to eating less than I would prefer to eat, whether I count Points or calories or do some other magical plan. Where's the Goldfish Cracker diet? I really could get behind that one right now. So you'll notice (especially if you subscribe to the RSS feed and see how many times I've edited this) that the crazy switch has only "On" and "Paused" positions. There is no "Off."
photo by princess toadie