Wednesday, September 05, 2007

soul searching

I really want to thank the people who thoughtfully commented on yesterday's post. They helped me a lot, because it helped me think about what I'm actually thinking about when I think about quitting meetings.

I think that I wanted to tell myself it was OK not to try so hard to lose, which it isn't really. As John said, I'm so close. But I'm creeping further away, and I think that quitting meetings might be giving myself permission to give up. That's not what I want to do. I definitely need to lose those 5.6 pounds. Sure, no one else might be able to tell the difference, but mentally there is a big difference between almost at goal and at goal.

Laura N. is right, it may help to keep me anchored while everything else is changing. And now that some of my major worries are out of the way, I shouldn't be able to make excuses for not sticking to it. Ironically, the long commute may make it easier to stick to my food plan, because I won't have time to snack. I don't like to eat in my car.

By the way, I'm reading Nina Planck's Real Food and am looking forward to writing a review of it when I'm done. It's an interesting book.


  1. How funny that we both are posting about going to WW meetings! I understand that one more thing on your schedule may be too much, and you will have a long commute.

    But I"m finding for myself that NOT going to or staying for a meeting leads to dangerous territory. I've been going lately but just weighing in and it's not enough. I need the dedicated time once a week to focus on my body and weight in a place that's designed to do that in a supportive way.

    My vote would be for you to look for a weekend meeting if possible, and if not, to commit to doing something online at least so you have community. You're so very close to being back at your goal and once you're there, you want to stay there.

    Of course, I don't get a vote but that's what I'd say :)

  2. Smart thinking. You saw right through yourself on that one. That's one of the things about those of us who battle weight issues. We often justify things that are nothing more than roadblocks in our road to success. You'll make it. Don't lower your standards, just keep trying. You need to believe that there is no other option other than success.

  3. That IS smart thinking! Laura’s right with needing something to anchor your self and sticking to the meetings would be a good way.

    Ooooo! Another book review! I love your book reviews.

  4. Congratulations on your new job! (I am just getting caught up on all the blogs after the holiday.)

    When do you start?

  5. Do you ever hang out on the message boards? I still go to meetings but I don't always stay (I've been doing this so long that they are repetitive and tedious now), but I find that I get all the support, motivation, laughter, and understanding that I need on the message boards. I hang out specifically on the 50+ Pounds to Lose board, and the gals there are a riot!

  6. I start Monday, very soon. Tons to do before then, too.

  7. Recommitment after going through a doubtful period often brings about a stronger commitment than the initial effort.

    So, you're recommitted-- go kick some butt! =)

  8. It just occurred to me, Jen, that maybe there's a WW meeting near your new job. It might be a way for you to go to a meeting and stay there long enough to maybe avoid the immediate traffic jams.

    For me, as much as I bitch about going to get weighed in, I do need that reality check. I didn't weigh in as much when I was on crutches and it was great to find out I had lost. I didn't weigh in as much then because I thought I would be maintaining or even gaining. Just my 2 cents.

    Good luck on Monday!

  9. Hey, I was about 45 pounds overweight, then I got type 2 diabetes, pretty much got my act together overnight, after that.....NO MORE SUGAR, seriously, this works like a charm. cut out sugar and high and medium glycemic foods. Im sure we've heard it a thosand times but the weight will fall off within months, even without additional exercise.
    Just have patience.
    All the best. Dave

  10. Good luck tomorrow on your first day at work.


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