Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Looking for happy

The body is an amazing thing.  Though my knee still hurts and is clicking and snapping when I walk, it's not in constant pain like it was on Sunday.  Two days of rest have really helped, and I especially noticed a difference in each morning when I woke up.

I told my husband this morning, sort of tongue-in-cheek, that I'm glad I have my sports medicine appointment tomorrow, before it gets a chance to get too much better.  Seriously, though, I don't want to ignore this, as I need to know what's going on to be sure that I'm not doing something that will cause me to re-injure myself and that I do whatever I need to be doing to make it stronger in the long term.

The picture here (excuse the awkward selfie, but I wanted to show the dress, the American Rag Striped A-Line Dress, another Gwynnie Bee favorite (affiliate link)) was taken on Friday, before I messed up my knee.  Over the weekend, I had those two formal events, where I got dressed up and felt glamorous.  I bought the cute dress I'm wearing in the picture because it seemed so fun for warm weather.  I had been feeling very happy and confident and looking forward to a great summer.  On Sunday, after I injured myself, I felt instantly very sad, and I was moody and grouchy for a lot of yesterday -- I felt like all my hopes for the summer and were a pipe dream, that every time I got a little momentum, something bad happened. It wasn't far from there to fears about getting older, blah, blah, blah.

I'm feeling physically better today and my mood is lifting. I will say, though, that my mornings feel empty without a workout.  It throws off my whole routine.  But it's raining outside, and it's quite cozy in here with my little cat on my lap and some time to catch up on friends' blogs. Life isn't so bad.

Here's hoping the doctor has some good news for me. But I'm hoping that I have finally learned my lesson about pushing myself too far when I don't feel right.  Skipping a run is better than not being able to walk.



    1. Thanks for visiting, Carla!

  2. Exactly what I need to hear, since it's raining here and I'm so focused on
    a) my walking streak and
    b) my mileage goal
    that I would be very likely to screw something up physically if I were to head out on a day like this. I thank you for sharing your experience.

    1. It can be hard to tell the difference between, "I don't wanna!" and "No, I really shouldn't." That's where I trip up.

  3. I did a lot of abs and arms and Pilates style legs with a broken foot in a boot. There is no reason to skip the workout, you just adapt the workout.

    What is your ratio of run to injury? Do you make it a few months and then have a problem again? Because I am wondering if you need to only walk, bike, swim. I have no extra weight on me. If I ran. I would have constant knee problems. Constant. Knee suicide. And I find that I will do ANYTHING to avoid injury. Whatever I have to switch up, that is what I do. Ego at the door. What I envision at the door. What I might have done in the past, at the door. I am where I am NOW. I see a lot of bloggers always trying to get back to what they used to do, or what they wanted to be, and cycling thru injuries once or twice a year. It plays havoc with their mind, mood, life, weight loss/maintenance, ability to function, etc.


"Count your calories, work out when you can, and try to be good to yourself. All the rest is bulls**t." -- Jillian Michaels at BlogHer '07