One thing I really, really want to do is to give my fitness goals the attention and committed action that they deserve. I have the right to be gorgeous if I want to, and if I ever want to make that happen, it should be soon. That means not trying to parse the numbers so I don't have to work to lose weight, but to push myself a little so that it happens sooner rather than later.
I think that looking better will also help me as I start to push toward a more fulfilling career. Looks matter when looking for a job. I like the work I do, but don't see myself happy at the school forever. I would like to either be at a bigger, more dynamic institution of higher education, or a smaller and more nimble workplace like my last job (but without the 45-minute commute) where I would be doing more interesting work, maybe traveling and training again. I need a 2- to 3-year plan and I have to think about what I want.
I did much better at my parents' house today. I enjoyed playing with my nephew instead of picking at the food. I planned a good dinner for tonight when I finally got hungry again, modeling a salmon salad I had Friday night when we went out. I used a little balsamic glaze on it but no other dressing. It has spinach leaves, walnuts, a little feta, and a few berries. The salmon just had a little olive oil and some balsamic vinegar, plus salt and pepper. It was a perfect dinner after a heavy lunch. And starting next week, I am taking some new workout classes -- mostly strength-based -- which should shake up my routine a little.
Look out world, I am tired of playing it safe.