Friday, March 22, 2013

Feeling more hopeful

I felt so terrible yesterday that I was really afraid I had some sort of antibiotic-resistant bug that was going to kill me. I know that sounds dramatic, I am just not used to feeling so terrible for so long with a cold. Then I realized that most of what was bothering me was centered around my red, irritated eye. My eyes hurt. My head hurt. I just wanted to sleep and could barely keep my eye open, especially in bright light. I remembered that sensitivity to light was a sign that an eye was infected, so I called the eye doctor, who got me in.  I had to teach in the evening, and between my afternoon appointment, and the looong wait at the pharmacy to get the drops for my infected eye, I just barely made it to class. The good news is that the doctor had me do three drops in fairly quick succession for the first day, and I woke up this morning feeling a million times better. I think once the infection really clears, I will be even better yet. I just took the last amoxycillin today.

No contact lenses until Monday, which means I will miss swimming again.  I've tried swimming without my contacts and I can't see the board, or the clock, or recognize people. I am going to take it easy until after my appointment on Tuesday, and just do some walking to keep active. Then, I hope, I might actually be able to get back to some kind of an exercise schedule. I think my souped-up anxiety about my possible death yesterday, and waking up in the middle of the night to worry about money last night, have a lot to do with the fact that I haven't been able to use exercise to unwind the tight little spring that lives inside my brain.

My weight is holding steady at 181.6. This is week 3 in my Pill pack, so I would expect to be up a bit.  Next week is the week in my cycle where I would expect to have a bigger weight loss. I learned this from my Weight Watchers agita. Week 1, down a little. Week 2, down a little. Week 3, up. Week 4, down a lot. One of the advantages of weighing in at home is that I can take note of what the scale is doing as feedback, consider all the variables, and move on. Maybe next week could be the week that I finally break out of the 180s. which has taken longer than expected because of all these setbacks. If DietBet just helps me break that 180 barrier, it is worth the $25. I am still in it to win it, though. I am at 30% of my weight goal with 23 days left to lose 5.2 pounds.

Last night was the first night of a new term, and it went really well. This class is lively -- they goof around a little, but they do actively participate in discussion, unlike one of the classes I had last term. I feel hopeful about them too.  I had been dreading starting a new class because of how bad I was feeling, and they made it fun.

Spring just might come after all, too. And maybe I'll finally be well enough to enjoy it.


  1. I was going to suggest looking into prescription swimming goggles until you said you were worried about money. I know nothing about them.

    Glad you have a fun class. I can imagine that good class participants would make the time and the topic go a lot smoother.

    I am not sure I know what topics you teach - ? Is it the same each semester or do you have to re-prepare all the time?

    I think I once had a kid with such a bad sinus infection that goo was actually coming out the eye. Wonder if your sinus is tied in with eye or eye has something different.

    1. It could be either -- sinusitis could have caused the eye, or the eye could have been generating so much fluid that it caused the sinusitis. Either way, after the second day of eyedrops, I am doing much better.

      I have never looked into prescription goggles because I wear my contacts 95% of the time. I am very nearsighted, so much so that I need the carbon lenses. I doubt it would be cost-effective to get special goggles for a situation that doesn't come up very often.

  2. glad you are better. the eye thing sounds awful.

    your class sounds fun. I imagine it makes all the difference when you have attentive, fun students.

    my weight does the same cycle thing. lucky it's predictable and it doesn't throw us off our game when we see a gain.

    hope your weekend goes well. has to be better now that you're no longer sick. take care!

    1. To both of your -- I teach four or five different classes, so I'm always preparing a new syllabus -- even when I have taught the class before, I like to do new things to keep it fresh. It makes a big difference when the group is engaged. I have this coming Thursday off, and then six weeks of class, and then summer. Even more than the classes, I have committee work, and a big paper to work on for a conference in June, and lots of students who suddenly decided they want to finish their independent projects. So it's a good job, but I do have a lot of things to juggle.


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