Friday, December 10, 2010

December 10: Wisdom

 Today's prompt from Reverb10:

Prompt: Wisdom: What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out?.

I think my wisest decision was deciding that losing weight would make me happier than not losing weight, and that my best bet on the former was to return to Weight Watchers

Among the many podcasts I listen to is one on weight loss and healthy living that is hosted by two men. One of the men obviously has his weight mostly under control, but the other seems to be struggling.  I found myself getting increasingly aggravated that he was making so many excuses for why he wasn't losing and was obviously doing everything he could to avoid honestly counting his calories while still tricking himself into thinking he was doing OK, even though he continued to either lose weight or just maintain.

And then I realized, hey, that sounds familiar.  Seeing someone else's apparent denial helped me to recognize my own.  Another impetus was the incredibly unflattering photo that my department posted of me in one of our common spaces. The person who picked this photo out probably didn't think it was unflattering, they probably thought it was accurate. Someday, I want people to look at that photo and think, "that's you?" So I'm back at Weight Watchers.

I'm still struggling but at least I have a program to provide a framework and a path toward better results.  I am tracking accurately and consistently, even if I still go over my points now and then. I'm not hiding from myself or fooling myself by thinking I don't want to be thinner just because it's difficult to get there.

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"Count your calories, work out when you can, and try to be good to yourself. All the rest is bulls**t." -- Jillian Michaels at BlogHer '07