I was up 2.6, back up to 177.8. I was pretty down about it for most of yesterday and spent most of the day reading a novel instead of doing the work I wanted to get done. I'm on a midterm break, and I told myself it was research for NaNoWriMo.
I did write about 600 words yesterday, nothing spectacular, just a description for a story that has been kicking around in my head for a while, practice for NaNoWriMo but not the same story I plan to use for that. I haven't done any today yet (except this post). I have been thinking about a plot outline for my story, and my goal for today is to type it out. As the founder of NaNoWriMo says, to write a novel in a month, you have to shift your goal from "bestseller" to "would not make someone vomit." That's the high bar I'm setting for myself.
I need some other goals besides weight loss. At my meeting last week, I heard a woman who looked about 80 talking to a friend who was suggesting she let her doctor set her goal. "I know about what he wants me to be, but I want to lose more." I thought, "Why, so you can look hot in a bikini?" I don't want to be there in 40 years. But I also disagree with the statement I heard a friend make recently, "I'd rather be happy than thin." I love food, but usually my weight gains aren't happening because I'm having too much fun. I gain weight when I think, "What's the point," and eat more than I really want.
I'd rather be happy and thin.