Sunday, October 04, 2009

Crummy race

The title says it all this time. I started out feeling really good -- ran very well for the first 6 miles or so. Then reality started to settle in. I had trained on what few hills we have around here, but this course had real hills. There was a lot of up and down, more up, I think. I slowed down quite a bit, then I got upset because I was slowing down and it was getting harder... it turned into a vicious cycle. I did a serious amount of walking. My husband ended up running with me the whole way, so he got to listen to me whine and cry and basically throw a temper tantrum about how much I hated racing, hated myself for signing up for this... I really started swearing when it seemed like they hid the finish line as much as possible, so you ran the last half mile with almost no hope. Well, that is if you were running for the whole last half mile. I wasn't. At the end I really didn't care about anything but not running any more.

Yes, it really was that bad.

I never used to understand why I'd see people walking with less than a mile to the finish. Now I understand. They aren't sure they can do anything else.

The good news is that I finished. And, as much as I worried that it would, it didn't take me three hours to finish it. More like 2:40. I haven't looked up my time because I know it stinks. Note: I did look it up and it was even worse than I thought. 2:48:15. All that walking...

But, I finished.

It will be a long time before I sign up for another half, and I will only do a large race like this on unfamiliar terrain if I get a brain hemorrhage and forget how much this stunk.

It's funny, I think two weeks ago I could have had a really good race, on a flat course at least. I got a little cold earlier this week and I don't think I'm totally over it yet.

But I finished.

11 comments:

  1. GOOD JOB finishing a half marathon! Wow! Even if it was not your ideal race...you DID do it..and ran your race. That is a lot more than 99.9% of the world did during that same time period!

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  2. I'll bet the cold had something to do with it.

    My husband used to run some, he felt that sometimes he didn't do as well as others, but for no apparent reason, just the way it was. His body just didn't always respond they way he hoped or expected, and the older you get...

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  3. You finished, which counts a lot. I'm glad Jesse was running with you for support and encouragement and company while you went through it. I can't conceive of even signing up for such a thing! You remain an inspiration just by finishing when it got so hard.

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  4. 12 miles is an incredible accomplishment whether walked or run or both. You did more today than most of us will have done all week. Congratulations on finishing.

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  5. Sometimes these things happen and when you have hills on a race and weren't expecting them, it can really mess with your mind. I had a race once where the gel was doing a job on my intestines and I promise you I finished that one with a bad attitude too. But, at least you finished and you beat everyone who didn't even start! Good job regardless!!

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  6. Man, that reminds me of the crappy 5K I ran two months ago in the heat, humidity and with only one water station. It was AWFUL. I knew I could have gotten a better time if I'd been hydrated. But, I finished, and so did you! You beat all the people who didn't run, uh, like me.

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  7. I'm sorry it sucked, but I'm glad you finished.

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  8. Oh Jen... sorry it sucked :( if I had a cold I would have wussed out and hid in my bed all day! But you did it - and you finished... good on you xx

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  9. but you did it.

    which is FAR FAR MORE than this woman.

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  10. Finishing when you clearly were feeling like it might be impossible is really the true indicator of accomplishment in my opinion. To me it is a greater accomplishment when something is challenging, hard, or as you put it "crummy" than if it had been easy.

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  11. I'm sorry you felt like the race was so crummy and were not able to enjoy it! You still did great though. Keep at it. They aren't all easy. :)

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