I have been toying with the idea of dropping my Weight Watchers Online subscription, because I hate to pay for something I'm not using, and I have not been journaling much in the last few weeks. I thought that my trip would be a good time to start, but then I didn't. My food was weird and I didn't have a lot of time to myself or a reliable wireless connection for using the mobile points counter. I really wish that WW would create an app like "Lose it!" that doesn't require a constant connection to the Internet to work.
I thought I'd give it another try before I make the decision. Honestly, the $15-ish dollars that I'm spending for my online monthly subscription is not that much. I am going to go back to a strategy that has worked well for me in the past: Journaling everything, no matter what, for the next week days without worrying about the points total. I want to just observe and see what happens.
For one thing, I want to see what my points balance is when I'm making good choices but not being overly restrictive, and see if I can raise my points allowance from the very low 22 points per day that WW suggests for someone my size. For another, I want to break the perfectionism habit that seems to keep smacking me in the face.
I also want to change my abusive thought patterns. Seriously, I caught myself thinking my body was "repulsive" yesterday just because I was still feeling bloated and stiff from the plane and couldn't go do a run. WTF? My poor body, which has done amazing things for me over the years while I've overstuffed it, yelled at it, over- and under-exercised it, does not deserve that kind of treatment. Seriously, it's time that I gave myself (and everyone around me who has to listen to this BS) a break. I'm going to try some of the strategies from this article and see if I can't be a little kinder to us all.