So I've been dithering and screwing around and basically not committing to any kind of a diet plan. The good news is that I've been exercising: I ran 35 minutes on Sunday, swam a mile and walked 50 minutes on Monday, and ran 35 minutes yesterday. Today is Spinning class. Tomorrow I'm not sure because the weather is supposed to be awful -- I may run or I may wave it off until Friday.
I went out to dinner and shopping with a friend. The friend and I really can't shop at the same stores, so she looks impatient when we're at the Gap and I am bored looking at Lane Bryant. I ate too much at dinner and was feeling uncomfortable. Then I tried on a pair of size 14 pants at JCPenney's and they went on but looked terrible and I thought, "Do I really want to shop at Lane Bryant again?" Hopefully it was just that pair of pants, because my other ones fit, but still...
No, I don't. I need to figure this out before I spend another summer unhappy about not liking my legs in shorts or any of me in a bathing suit.
I watched "The Biggest Loser" and thought, if these people can get it together, why can't I?
I am frustrated with my inability to get it together on The Beck Plan and my lack of ideas about anything that will actually work. I am not sure where to go from here. I think if there was a Biggest Loser camp I'd just go there and let someone boss me around for a while.
The good news is that the scale says 174.5 today, so even though I feel like I am way up, I'm actually down a little from when I started the Beck thing again with such high hopes. I'm going to finish writing my food plan for today (still trying to make this plan work) and get to Spinning. Maybe the workout will brighten my mood.