Wednesday, February 11, 2009

A quickie

So I've been dithering and screwing around and basically not committing to any kind of a diet plan. The good news is that I've been exercising: I ran 35 minutes on Sunday, swam a mile and walked 50 minutes on Monday, and ran 35 minutes yesterday. Today is Spinning class. Tomorrow I'm not sure because the weather is supposed to be awful -- I may run or I may wave it off until Friday.

I went out to dinner and shopping with a friend. The friend and I really can't shop at the same stores, so she looks impatient when we're at the Gap and I am bored looking at Lane Bryant. I ate too much at dinner and was feeling uncomfortable. Then I tried on a pair of size 14 pants at JCPenney's and they went on but looked terrible and I thought, "Do I really want to shop at Lane Bryant again?" Hopefully it was just that pair of pants, because my other ones fit, but still...

No, I don't. I need to figure this out before I spend another summer unhappy about not liking my legs in shorts or any of me in a bathing suit.

I watched "The Biggest Loser" and thought, if these people can get it together, why can't I?

I am frustrated with my inability to get it together on The Beck Plan and my lack of ideas about anything that will actually work. I am not sure where to go from here. I think if there was a Biggest Loser camp I'd just go there and let someone boss me around for a while.

The good news is that the scale says 174.5 today, so even though I feel like I am way up, I'm actually down a little from when I started the Beck thing again with such high hopes. I'm going to finish writing my food plan for today (still trying to make this plan work) and get to Spinning. Maybe the workout will brighten my mood.


  1. Great job with all of that exercising. It sounds like you are on the right track. Let me tell you that you really don't want to shop at Lane Bryant again. They have beautiful clothes but right now I would kill to shop in the regular stores again. I don't think it wll be to long for me but it kind of seems like forever before I will fit into the regular store clothes.
    Good luck with keeping the weight off. I think you are going to do great!

  2. Yeah, you're doing so great with the exercise. You're inspiring me!

  3. I'd kill to be able to run for 35 minutes straight. I'm up to a bit more than a mile, and about 15 minutes, which is a huge victory for me.

    Keeping up the exercise is definitely the way to go. You'll start to get the eating right after that.

  4. Jen - I feel your frusteration. I was at the same point as you when I started my journey. I was doing really well with my exercise (running) but I was unable to lose any weight. I was also tired of hearing myself go on about it. I was to a point that I seriously thought if I wasn't willing to try harder, then I needed to lower my expectations. Then, once I got my thinking "straightened out", I started losing weight, albeit very slowly. Once a few pounds came off (maybe 10) I realized what I needed to do and how I needed to think about it. Hang in there, you'll find the unique solution that is yours. It will probably end up being a little bit of a lot of different things but once you find it, it will carry you to your goal. Hang in there and eat well. You may as well lose weight on your way to figuring it out!


"Count your calories, work out when you can, and try to be good to yourself. All the rest is bulls**t." -- Jillian Michaels at BlogHer '07