Saturday, November 01, 2008

Changing my perspective

I was misinformed about the number of trick-or-treaters to expect in my new suburban neighborhood. I figured we'd get hundreds of kids, since it's very walkable here. We got some very little kids but not a lot of older ones. I'd guess we had 60 or 70 kids at most. I had bought three 150-piece bags of candy from Costco to be prepared for a crush. I was originally going to buy two, but my sister convinced me that wouldn't be enough. I spent $36 or so on this candy.

I used up the first bag and a little of the second for the trick-or-treaters. There are almost 300 small candy bars in my house right now. How many have I eaten? In the last two days, maybe 6. I'm bored with them, and not tempted to have any more. I know the diet wisdom is "THROW IT AWAY" but I really don't want to. I think that just sends the message that I can't be trusted. I am going to take some to work and the rest will just go into lunches. I don't want to live the rest of my life afraid of food.

Now if it were Goldfish Crackers, I might feel more tempted. Or dark chocolate caramels.

As I've said before, I'm experimenting with Intuitive Eating, the idea that it's important to legalize all foods so that you can stop having the diet-binge-diet reaction to things. The idea is that even if you do overdo things, if you don't move on to the shame and punishment part of the cycle, it's not likely to continue. It seems to me that this candy thing is the kind of situation that tests a theory like this. The thing is, there is SO MUCH candy here that I couldn't possibly eat it all. Somehow that makes it less interesting.

I don't know how this will work out. It might be a big stupid mistake. If it seems to be a problem I'll get rid of it, but for now, I'm willing to trust the process.

One thing that does seem weird is that Costco sells these huge variety bags of candy all the time, not just at Halloween. Who buys 150-count bags of assorted candy at random times of the year?


  1. We had a bag of candy in our house, and it was out of sight. It took us a long time to finish it. We would have a piece maybe a few nights a week. I agree that nothing should be forbidden. I think you're going to be fine! :)

  2. Or you could just return it to Costco. You don't need a receipt. Bet they'd take back the open bag, too.

    People buy assorted candy for desk candy.

  3. Being able to have candy around and not be interested in diving into the bag is a big step. And as you indicated, you didn't buy the stuff that most tempts you, which was smart.

    We used to buy huge bags of assorted candy a few times a year for my work, when we would give food out to students. I know businesses have desk candy at reception, etc., and maybe regular people buy it to throw into lunches for a long time. If people didn't buy, they wouldn't still be selling it so SOMEONE buys it!

  4. That's sounds like lots of trick or treaters! I could not afford halloween! All food is legal to me but I have times when I avoid certain things and times when I indulge and I guess it is intuitive now. There is always room for improvement but for today, I am ok with it. Our candy is all gone now. But there is still some at work. The twix bars tempt me the most..

  5. good on you Jen :)

    I bought that IE book on your recommendation; just started reading it.

    Already something struck me where they're talking about how people say "i'm not dieting anymore, i just eat healthy" but that can mean a whole lot of rules and restrictions and craziness in itself... arrrgh.

  6. If you don't want to keep the candy or throw it away, how about donating it? I think Red Cross used little chocolate bars as treats, same with your local Food Bank.

    Just a thought :)


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