Monday, October 27, 2008

Today's check-in

This is just a quick post to check in. Mostly I'm too obsessed with the election to think of much else.

I am still trying to trust the process of the Intuitive Eating thing. It's hard, because I still have a strong urge to do a "just this once"diet because, of course, I want a quick fix. But I really do see the value of building a trust in myself to do the right thing. I read a little of Marion Nestle's What to Eat and realize that we've overcomplicated this food thing to the point of total dysfunction. I think the food companies love diets, because they confuse us so much that we don't really know what to do ("carbs are good," "carbs are bad," "you need to only have good carbs") that most of us end up buying both the junky junk food and the diet junk food, dumping it in the trash half the time covered in kitty litter and coffee grounds. They make money whether we actually eat the food or not.

Today I went to the gym and lifted weights. I wore a tank top and noticed that my arm muscles are starting to show a little definition. If this were the body I had to have for the rest of my life, I could live with it. I guess that's what acceptance looks like -- there are still things I would like to change, but the overall package isn't bad.

I really love my new job and never ever ever want to leave it. I'm lobbying for a permanent, full-time position.

5 comments:

  1. dude! i'm obsessed with your election to the point of barely sleeping so can't imagine how intense it must be for you :)

    glad to hear you're loving your new job... will cross fingers and toes a permanent post works out :)

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  2. Learning to trust yourself is huge and it takes lot of practice and the reinforcement of seeing how well it can work. You know what the "right things" are, most of us do. But trusting ourselves to actually do it is harder than relying on diets that we then get sick of and stop following.

    So happy you love the new job and we're all ready to lobby the college to tell them how awesome you are :)

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  3. How long have you been working on your arms and how long before you started to see definition? I actually just bought some hand weights to work the arms.

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  4. Thanks for commenting. My biceps are good, its the flappy underneath that didn't flap so much until recently (probably because I have lost more weight and haven't been working them out)...not very self conscious about the flap factor LOL

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  5. Glad I stumbled on to your blog! Looking forward to reading more.

    jen

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