Wednesday, April 30, 2008

feeling low

It's been a rough few weeks. I feel like every random virus that comes my way seems to catch me. I have a little bit of the sniffles and I didn't sleep well last night, so I'll be working from home today and trying to get out of my funk.

Yesterday I went to check on some things at my old house on the way home from work (adding another 1.5 hours in the car) and stopped at Target to pick up some cleaning supplies. And bought a multipack of single-serving bags of Goldfish crackers, since I was hungry and it was going to be a while before I got anything real to eat. So what a surprise that I ate three packages as I drove down the highway, while listening to a Jillian Michaels podcast. I share this story to show how cracked up I am lately.

I'm still trudging along, and have various things in the works. A couple I can't really discuss until I know how they turn out. Hopefully some of them work out in my favor and my load will lighten a little.

Needless to say, my most recent weight-loss efforts aren't going well. I sort of give myself an out because everything else is so muddled, which isn't necessarily in my best interest. The weight worries are in the background, but they're there. The other day I heard a voice in my head asking if I really wanted to get myself back up to 200 pounds before I made a change. No. I don't.

So keep me in your thoughts, if you could, and hope that I find a little sanity in my day.

5 comments:

  1. Noel just left this link for me - because I was talking about things "sucking" - you might enjoy it too.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HPvZVdHDB4E

    Hope things get better.

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  2. been there, done that... i put my weightloss effort on the back burner too and am so looking forward to working on it again... and i agree with what you said - even though you may not be working on losing weight, the worries are still there (guilt perhaps)... we'll both be on track again soon so don't be so hard on yourself... :o)

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  3. When I'm feeling like you I just try to maintain. I focus on eating healthy and making good choices but I don't put any expectations on myself to lose. Hang in there! Your motivation will come back.

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  4. You will get through this! If you need a kick in the butt, just let us know I'm sure we will oblige :)

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  5. Sorry you are feeling low - hope today is better. I always do things like that - watch the Biggest Loser while eating a bowl of ice cream. Nice. When I get like this I just try to take it one day at a time, one meal at a time even. Breaking it down into something small makes it seem easier. Take care.

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"Count your calories, work out when you can, and try to be good to yourself. All the rest is bulls**t." -- Jillian Michaels at BlogHer '07