Monday, August 20, 2007

drawing the line

Weight Chart

I had been avoiding my weigh-in but it was time to make myself go. I could feel myself slipping and I knew I had gained. It was time to face up to it, and move on from there.

I've been giving myself lots of excuses why it's OK for me to pay less attention to my weight for now. I'm working on my dissertation, I am waiting to hear about potential jobs, I am contemplating a move... The truth is that all of this is true, but none of it makes me feel good about gaining weight. It sucks to feel clothes getting a little tighter and to know that I'm getting further from my goal instead of closer to it.

This is just plain silly. I had gotten so close to that 155 mark and gradually, one excuse at a time, I was heading away from it. So it stops here. I'm drawing the line. As of now I am going to start putting myself first again and not putting goldfish crackers ahead of my own personal goals.

I have kept my journal close to me and have been updating it today as I go along. I know what I'm going to have for dinner tonight, and I'm going to look through the kitchen and plan out the rest of the week later tonight. I did a short but symbolic workout in the pouring rain today (only 10 minutes of running, just to break the lazy cycle I've been in).

I'm not beating myself up here, I am just taking charge.

I'm glad I went to the meeting today. Weighing in, even though I didn't like the number, helped me set a boundary on the creeping gain and apathy I felt. And besides, they have a cute promotion now called "Passport to Success." It involves stickers, scratch-off lottery tickets, and prizes. They really do know me. I might acutally be more motivated at the thought of possibly winning a gift card or a vacation than I am by the possibility of actually losing the weight. Sad but true.

8 comments:

  1. OK, the reality of it is that you aren't up that much! But your trend line is going in the wrong direction. You reined it in before things got too bad, give yourself credit! You proved you are human but as long as you keep tabs in yourself one day you WILL make your goal! You're making steps to head in that direction so have confidence in yourself that you will make it, because to not do so is NOT AN OPTION!

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  2. You should be congratulated for being able to rein yourself in. Many people can't keep a good mindset to do that. Journaling is one of the best ways I've found to keep myself in control. My weigh in is tomorrow. I don't know what the scale will tell. But I think I'm doing OK.

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  3. You are totally on the right track, with your journal, a small workout to shake things up, and going back to meetings. I love the stickers/scratch off game--just because we are grown up doesn't mean we don't respond to rewards! I have no doubt you are going to reach your goal. Good for you for turning it around NOW!

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  4. I just found you today...after missing my WW meeting 3 weeks in a row I'm NOT looking forward to weigh in...I'm going to read you today for a little inspiration! I have gone up and down and am SO close to my 10%...my problem, NO EXERCISE!! Yeah..I know. Glad to find you!

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  5. i think you did the right thing - by weighing-in, you now have something to work from... don't worry about yesterday, or last week, or last month - just concentrate on what you can start doing today to get to your goal... planning your meals is a great start so you're already on your way! :o)

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  6. I really can't add to the really good and smart advice you got from everyone else. You're working on it. A lot of people would not go back to the WW meeting and keep whistling and hoping that some magical thing would occur to get them on track.

    You took control of that and owned it by going to the meeting and facing up to it. You're taking the appropriate steps to take control without going overboard and I think you'll see success. I'm proud of you for going back. I know that's not easy to stand in a line and get weighed.

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  7. I love your blog! I've tagged you for blog tag - you don't have to do it, but visit www.burningthescale.com/blog-tag-8-fun-facts-about-me/ for more info!

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  8. There’s a lot going on in your life right now, and most people would have gained a lot more. I’m glad that you’ll be putting yourself first again. It’s tough, but I know you can do it!

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