Friday, May 25, 2007

fat thinking

Here's the audio from the Revolution Health conference call on Tuesday. I keep thinking back to something that Dr. Hill said, that being obese may permanently change you in ways that makes it harder to lose the weight, so preventing weight gain is easier than helping people lose.

I wonder if the change isn't mental instead of metabolic. I haven't seen the research on this topic, but I know that thinking of yourself as a fat person makes it more likely that you will behave in ways that are counterproductive to weight loss, no matter how much you want to lose. About two weeks ago, I was walking around feeling thin and marvelling about how easy the weight-loss process seemed to have become. Then I had a couple of slips, and since the weigh-in on Tuesday when I found I had gained almost 3 pounds, I have found it very difficult to stay on track. I know that my metabolism didn't change in a few days. I am sure that if someone could rig the scale so that it showed 150 (and I believed it), I'd be back in my little pink cloud again.

I was chatting with Anne the other day about childhood weight gain. Several of the bloggers on Angry Fat Girlz were put on diets or otherwise given the messsage that they were overweight kids. Then, when we look back at photos of ourselves at that time, most of us looked normal, or maybe just slightly chubby. Maybe thinking of ourselves in that way had something to do with our weight gain. How might our lives have been different if we weren't given that message that there was something wrong with us?

I'm not blaming the parents, exactly. Moms and dads of fat kids are often criticized and made to feel that it's their fault if their kids are heavy. There's a lot of pressure on them to "fix" whatever they think is going wrong. Parents do the best they can, and they make mistakes like we all do. Then when we leave their houses, it's our job to finish growing up on our own. We can decide for ourselves who we want to be.

So for the rest of this week, especially with a holiday weekend, I'm going to try to think thin.


  1. Me, too. I am going to think thin, too. I have lots of theories on why I gained weight. And I have read information on how being overweight changes us to where we cannot even eat the same amount as a person who has never been overweight, and so on. But right now I just want to focus on how I am losing it and keeping it off. I find that my fluctuation is even smaller now. The most I have gained back is about 5 pounds, and I have lost it back both times. I used to gain back more than that, and then keep on gaining. I am going to focus today on progress. Thanks for the inspiration.

  2. Anonymous12:39 PM

    One way I can tell when my body image changes is by my dreams. The question I would ask is, what is my body size in my dreams? When I knew I was 'fat' was when my body couldn't get through doors or tight places in my dreams. But when I lost weight I started to dream as a normal sized body again.


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