Tuesday, May 08, 2007
the 150s at last!
I was pretty sure I'd make it into the 150s today but I didn't want to take it for granted. I did all the usual pre-weigh-in rituals: Stopped eating by 7 a.m., wore my lightest clothes, etc. I surprised myself by shooting right past the 159 mark into 158 territory.
I was really focused this week and I know that following the Beck Diet Solution strategies helped a lot. I need to keep that focus, because as my leader reminded me today, I'm within spitting distance of not having to pay for meetings anymore.
The tasks for yesterday and today involved scheduling and exercise, and in the last couple of days, I've blocked out a rough workout plan. I decided to use the Couch to 5K program as a gentle way to get back into running. A lot of other weight-loss bloggers, including Alicia, use this program as a way to start a running program, and I've been away from running long enough that I feel like a newbie runner. I also have a plan I got from a trainer a few years ago that I'm going to use for strength training, and I'll keep going to yoga class to stay flexible.
I have been going around with this picture of myself in my head as really huge, even though I'm getting close to my weight goal. I have this sense of my weight goal as a cop-out because it's the highest weight goal allowed for my height. So I tell myself that even when I get to goal, I'll still be pretty large. I caught a glimpse of myself in yoga class yesterday and realized that this image of myself is really out of whack with reality. I look, if I can dare to say it, pretty good.
I've been wasting a lot of time being hard on myself in other areas of my life too. I haven't found a job yet, my dissertation's not done, and I'm spending a lot of time worrying about it. I need to worry less and work more.
I am using the kitchen timer trick on my dissertation, figuring that the only way through this thing is a little at a time. I was doing 40 minutes on, 20 minute breaks, but even that was too intimidating, so now I'm doing 30 on and 30 off. Little by little, I'm going to chip away at this thing. Until then, I'm going to stop spending so much time looking at job postings. I can find something to get through the next few months, even if it isn't my Dream Job. I could do web consulting or part-time teaching, or I could even get a Joe Job for a while if nothing better materializes. If anything fabulous falls in my lap, you all will be the first to know.
"Count your calories, work out when you can, and try to be good to yourself. All the rest is bulls**t." -- Jillian Michaels at BlogHer '07