Sunday, April 29, 2007

self-sabotage

Has this happened to you? Toward the end of the day yesterday, I was in good shape -- had eaten a nice balance of foods and had just enough points left to have some popcorn while I watched a movie on DVD. I had the popcorn and still didn't feel satisfied. I wanted more.

I thought, "OK, I can go over my points a little bit, I'll just get one little snack." Even as I made that decision, I knew it was a bad one. Once I'm over, after all, there's no reason not to go over more. My first trip to the kitchen turned into three trips.

My movie snacking ended up being: 1/2 c. popcorn kernels, air-popped and spritzed with a little canola oil and Kernel Seasons, 20 Ritz crackers and 2 slices of cheese, and about a cup of pistachio nuts in the shell. So I had about 16 points while watching the movie, putting me over for the day by 14, or more than half my total daily allowance.

I get frustrated with myself when I do things like this. I woke up this morning still feeling a little full, a sure sign I ate too much. It's funny, too, that I just started reading The Beck Diet today, which talks about the importance of sticking to your food plan and remembering the reasons you want to lose weight when you're tempted to stray. I even thought about it as I was putting together my second plate of cheese and crackers. And do you know what I thought? "I don't care."

So far, Beck Diet 0, Jen's Inner Fat Girl 1. Bummer.

4 comments:

  1. I do stuff like that all the time.

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  2. It's such a slippery slope, isn't it? And an easy one to fall down. At least you tracked everything and aren't hiding what you're eating. I have been taking bites of food lately-- a bite of cake at a wedding, a bite of the kids' breakfast. The bites are adding up, not just on the scale, but on the "it doesn't count" food intake list. I've even had two off plan biscotti's at night before bedtime this past week. NOT good habits to be falling back into. Emotional eating, stress eating, envy eating-- whatever it is, it's eating, and the Inner Fat Girl is smirking and hoping she's going to win the war.

    Let's tell the Inner Fat Girl that we love her, we understand she has needs, but she needs to go take a nap because Skinny Girl lives here now. She may have lost a battle or two, but Skinny Girl's here for good and is flying her flag high!

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  3. It happens to everyone now and then -- just have to forgive yourself and move on :) totally easier said then done I know -- but if it helps I could come over with a wet noodle and give you 40 lashes

    Lady Rose

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  4. It happens to me too. But like everyone says, we have to forgive ourselves and move forward. And look at what you ate...it's not like you knocked over a bakery or doughnut shop. It's good nutritious food at least.

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