Tuesday, March 27, 2007
weigh-in report, 3/26/2007
I am going to have to miss my regular meeting again today, so I weighed in last night at an evening meeting, which has become almost a regular meeting for me because I've used it as a backup so often lately. I had a very small loss, 0.2 pounds, which may have been just the result of weighing at a different time or different clothes, but I'm not going to look a gift weight loss in the mouth. I am inching toward the 150s, and as long as the progress keeps going in the right direction, I'm happy.
I have been feeling mostly pretty good about the way I look now. I have stopped hiding from cameras or worrying about holding my chin in just the right angle to make my face look thinner. It's odd the way the weight has come off. I am really noticing the change in certain places, like my face, neck and upper chest. My collarbones seem really prominent to me all of a sudden. Other places are slower to catch up. My upper arms, for example, resist all my efforts to buff them up. My thighs are also holding out. I have a little soft spot below my belly button that I camoflage the best I can by wearing mid-rise jeans (thanks, Stacy and Clinton) with a wide belt. But my waist itself is looking so much smaller.
Back in August, I did an Angry Fat Girlz post about body shape. I think my body shape is most noticeable when I'm in this middle range -- when I'm really thin (for me) or really fat, my body's particular quirks are less apparent. Or maybe it was that when I felt worst about my body, I didn't spend as much time looking at it. I think that there have been times when, as Frances wrote yesterday, I was so wrapped up in an effort to hide what my body really looked like from myself and others that I never really saw it. Ironically, I feel like I'm both more realistic about and accepting of my body now. As PastaQueen wrote recently, " I was never under any illusions that I would score the cover of the Sports Illustrated swimsuit edition when this was all done."
"Count your calories, work out when you can, and try to be good to yourself. All the rest is bulls**t." -- Jillian Michaels at BlogHer '07