Saturday, September 16, 2006

resisting

Sometimes the hardest thing the world is to pull out my journal and actually write down what I eat. It's not hard to go into the kitchen, look for food, find something I probably shouldn't have, take it out, and bring it into the living room and eat it front of the TV.

As I was thinking about writing this post,I realized I was at least a day behind in journaling. Of course, before I could write this. I had to pull the journal out and catch up. I did the best I could, but I think I might've forgotten a few things. And of course that's the attraction in not journaling, the ability to forget.

It's not that I had anything terrible really, it's just that I haven't been as careful as I should be to have the things I should have and not to have the things that shouldn't. I'm not binging exactly. I'm just not being careful.

I'm not sure why when I know that journaling works, and I know that not doing it doesn't work, that I keep doing the things that don't make sense. It is just too much trouble to journal, too much trouble to plan meals, too much trouble to cook the meals I plan, too much trouble to keep groceries in the house, too much trouble to clean up afterward.

In short I'm making excuses, and I'm not sure why really, because the stuff isn't that hard, doesn't need to be so hard, and I know the results are worth it. Maybe I'm not so sure that I'm worth it.

4 comments:

  1. Be sure to read Jack Sprat (and the anonymous comment) today - on the topic of journaling.

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  2. I think this is the hardest part - keeping a food journal. I use Fitday - but it can be a pain-in-the-b*tt! I really, really, want this to work for me, but the "chore" of taking 20 minutes per day, logging in my food, makes it easier to "forget" to log by Thursday, and forget about the weekend!!

    You have described my eating this week: "not binging exactly - just not being careful."

    Maybe in the future we will have built in little food scanners/calculators that tally up all our calories and cut us off when we have exceeded our caloric limit.

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  3. i find it easier to journal during the week, when i'm at work and keep track of what i'm eating during the day... on the weekends, i find it harder to do since i'm off schedule... i have learned though, that if i don't, i usually go way over my points and then hate myself for not doing it... such a cycle... :o)

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  4. Yep, my week too...not binging and not exactly eating carefully. I've been wanting soup but I couldn't have any b/c I weighed in tonight.

    S-O-D-I-U-M.....soooodiummm (sing to the song, Gloria).

    I need to get back on the journaling program or at least know exactly what I've eaten and the points.

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