Friday, August 04, 2006

not doing so well this week

This week has been hard for me. I was feeling so good after the race on Sunday, but the honeymoon lasted only through Tuesday morning. Tuesday afternoon, I was getting ready to help a friend move in the heat and had to wear shorts. I had a complete meltdown over how bad I felt in them. I have a few pairs of shorts I feel OK in, but they were in the wash, so this was a pair I really don't like, an old puffy-looking pair of soccer shorts.

My husband didn't help. He's a great guy but can't handle it when I'm unhappy. He just got angry with me for acting irrational and then got all irrational himself. It's frustrating that not only do I have to deal with my own stupidity at times like this, I also have a choice of trying to cover up how I feel or letting him know how I feel and taking the chance that I'll have to deal with his emotions in addition to my own. Not exactly my rock, here. So eventually I got us both calmed down and to the move site, but that was frustrating.

The moving wasn't so bad, just exhausting and hot. We ended up going out to dinner. I had earned a lot of activity points between my morning and the move, so I ended Tuesday OK with everything. But Wednesday I went to the county fair and had a couple of things that I knew were high in points but didn't realize how high. Because of the way I do my flex points, I burned my bank for the week plus some.

Yesterday I didn't do a big workout and kept putting off journaling until dinnertime. I realized in the middle of cooking dinner that I had no points left. I also realized about halfway through my shrimp quesadilla that I didn't like it at all. So I was frustrated and angry because I had wasted points I didn't have on something I didn't even enjoy. I ended up eating a single-serving bag of SunChips for "dinner" later that night. So far, I'm 14 points over for the week and my WW week only began on Tuesday.

I had been upping my intake of fruits and vegetables the last couple of weeks, but this week I have been getting the bare minimum of 2 fruits and 3 veggies, and sometimes not even that.

And last night I forgot about a friend's graduation party and completely missed it.

I feel like I'm blowing it in every area of my life.

1 comment:

  1. Jen, this heat hasn't helped. And I hate going out in my shorts but you know, I've gotten to the point where I sometimes just don't care. And you're smaller than me. And you don't have big old bruises all over your legs.

    As for your husband, sigh. Been there, done that. Maybe as time goes on, he can just get a little bit calmer and not take it so personally when you're having a bad day. I'm glad you got to feeling better after your bike ride. (Another thing that my dad never let me do; and now I'm afraid to try to do that. First let me figure out how to swim and maybe I'll think about the bike.)

    Hang in there, cool weather is on the way!


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