This week has been hard for me. I was feeling so good after the race on Sunday, but the honeymoon lasted only through Tuesday morning. Tuesday afternoon, I was getting ready to help a friend move in the heat and had to wear shorts. I had a complete meltdown over how bad I felt in them. I have a few pairs of shorts I feel OK in, but they were in the wash, so this was a pair I really don't like, an old puffy-looking pair of soccer shorts.
My husband didn't help. He's a great guy but can't handle it when I'm unhappy. He just got angry with me for acting irrational and then got all irrational himself. It's frustrating that not only do I have to deal with my own stupidity at times like this, I also have a choice of trying to cover up how I feel or letting him know how I feel and taking the chance that I'll have to deal with his emotions in addition to my own. Not exactly my rock, here. So eventually I got us both calmed down and to the move site, but that was frustrating.
The moving wasn't so bad, just exhausting and hot. We ended up going out to dinner. I had earned a lot of activity points between my morning and the move, so I ended Tuesday OK with everything. But Wednesday I went to the county fair and had a couple of things that I knew were high in points but didn't realize how high. Because of the way I do my flex points, I burned my bank for the week plus some.
Yesterday I didn't do a big workout and kept putting off journaling until dinnertime. I realized in the middle of cooking dinner that I had no points left. I also realized about halfway through my shrimp quesadilla that I didn't like it at all. So I was frustrated and angry because I had wasted points I didn't have on something I didn't even enjoy. I ended up eating a single-serving bag of SunChips for "dinner" later that night. So far, I'm 14 points over for the week and my WW week only began on Tuesday.
I had been upping my intake of fruits and vegetables the last couple of weeks, but this week I have been getting the bare minimum of 2 fruits and 3 veggies, and sometimes not even that.
And last night I forgot about a friend's graduation party and completely missed it.
I feel like I'm blowing it in every area of my life.